going back to school ?

Dude, i'm like what with that? what's with you?
Am i the one blinded by what i wanted to do with what i should do ?


My aunt told me, she wanted me to get back to school. she want's me to university.
I said, i don't even know what subject i wanted to take. She said it's ok, just go back and ...


Sighs* i felt like as if i'm a spoiled messed up kid whom's so hard headed that i wouldn't want to listen to any advice given and just go along for what i think i should do. Definitely, elders older and etc would say, think that i should listen to elderly advices because the salt they eat is more than the rice i intake, which also mean they know more than i do and etc etc.


But that doesn't mean every advice given would be the best way for me. We all grow in different way, most people went to college & university but maybe God blesses me financially with a different way. There's always a reason for everything, i wasn't brought up in a lucky family like you guys do. Not only financially, even this messed up family that i grew up at. That's not even a place to raise young kids, they would disordered a young child Innocent growing stage. And so, i would definitely say, if one of my parent's didn't managed to leave this family. you would totally see me in university blogging this post & as if my mom were to be more knowledgeable to keep my education doing well, and that my father would be more understanding and were able to take care of this young girl with guidance and love. I guarantee that, i wouldn't even had all this idea,thought and perspectives.


Seriously? Don't give me the whole " because your born in such families, that's why you need to work harder " speech. Seriously, not to be rude but that's what we usually see in movies. Poor kids striving hard for success to get a good family. 


Let's just say, Human weren't born to do all these. No phrases from any wise men says that we had to study real hard, go to university to have a good future. Not even the word " university, college" existed in the phrases of the wise. 


I want to be confident, and i want to say - See how will i grow, and see how God will bless my life wonderfully. Amen ! 


Thanks for all the concern.