a friend that is & losing them

Hey`

Well, the days have been awesome as the past two weeks, a sister of mine has been really amazing. Last week, i was asked to joined badminton with her and the next day we went to a thanksgiving dinner with other Christian people. She'd even made pizza and sent it personally to me. This week, well yesterday i mean the usual she brought me a long to play badminton with her. I did assume that tonight, anyhow she might would want to bring me to the fellowship study but ... i'm just not confident that would be happening. 

When someone's been great to you, sometimes i do wonders why and what makes them attached to me cause i definitely do not have anything to offer. I used to have a fear to get close with anyone because it would be a habit and things go bad when they doesn't treat you like they used to. 

Again, i forgot to do something i always wanted to do.

Unfortunately i passed by a blog and read a hearted confession. And they were right, i didn't noticed it. I hope in anyway i can do something to ease someone's mood killer in life.

How does friends really get a long together well in a very long time? i know it's normal to have conflicts and argument at times but sometime, i would just feel as if i'm far away from them. We do loves each other tho, so despite all the negative feelings & thoughts i'd rather choose positive. (:

I loved to choose to ignore the fact that i do care. Actually no, it's a lie.

I care a lot of things and i'm having a hard time to hide how much i do. Thing just happens and sometime you just wanted someone to be there and listen to all the scar in your heart & it's so not nice when you realize that they're not paying attention to your hearted confession as if your problem didn't even matter to them. But when they needed you the most, your always the one with the Free shoulder to offer.

But i'm learning to ignore what i care, so i wouldn't be so pathetic to all the things that i actually cares.

YanShiang, Bored,Karacoma,The Collaboration

RainForm Droughts.

let me see what i have to say here. Nothing much tho. But okay, atleast i need to bring some thing up right ?

Ohh yea` i'm so having hard times writing the member's guide for the organization. Just so you know. I mean i'm not sure like what should i really write about and stuff like that. Although i already got some written but i'm always not really absolutely satisfy with my works. But thank God that Meha will be helping me out, and Marilyn will be the one who correct all the grammar error in my paper. yikes *

They've been really great. I always says that because i'm so glad to have known them i mean if it weren't for them i think i would still be having some problem. But it felt as if i still have some problems, actually i'm just worried about do they understand how things are going to work, Just in case.

And on the other hand this guy, he wanted to have lunch together which is very nice of course. Guess i would try to go through the Guides with him see how he thinks first. 

I really really think i need to get back to work. I mean it's been like a few days away that i didn't really get my head into works. I did some articles for the church already, still of course not very satisfy but yet same intention is hoping they understand and have a different perspective. If not, everything would just be in vain.

And err, i think Yanshiang is getting cooler. She actually brought food for me twice. one is with Auntie( her mom ) then yesterday was Pizza, honey garlic actually. Which was great and awesome, we had a nice conversation in her car about some unsolve issue and concern over some things. Hope we could actually work things out together and with those whose interested to help out as well.

I thought July will actually passed very fast but it's just the 3rd day of July today. But days has been well packed with activities, mostly at night only but nooon i'm here working vainly. It's really boring to do the things your not really interested, that's why kids i advise you to live with your dream and do the things you like and enjoy. If you don't enjoy your work, hell are you going to enjoy your life? ( am just saying )

Oh yeaa, remember karacoma i mentioned at few posts away ? I heard, ( found out ) that they're actually the only band presenting brunei At Redtix, competing against 9 countries which actually includes Malaysia, Indonesia, Philippines, Vietnam & Thailand. Sounds kinda huge right ? I mean Brunei. Lols.

Still Goodluck Ofcourse to the Brunei Band.

Seriously, you may say my satellite is rosak or etc. But i haven or never really heard the KARACOMA band if it wasn't for Pelangi Fm. I guess, things around Brunei are just not very well known although your pretty goood in some ways. So i'm just wondering any ways that People can actually know What's going on IN Brunei, not referring to the Newspaper, how about facebook ? Well, only if you knew the page or etc. Anyway forget it.

Just founded this page not long a go. " the collaboration " so the description says "A group of aspiring photographers, each of a different background; collaborating together, with a hope to showcase inspiring photography projects." Hey, that hope ? Not even a Problem alright, Certainly your dream will come true. Great, now i have a New Idea. -___- Memang tak salah info ne. 

Do you know? That recently you could easily found photography groups in Brunei ? It's like Photography is getting more famous and people actually liked it. Well who doesn't cause i loved it. Still waiting for D5000 * majal* haha.

Oh yeaa, i remembered reading a post where someone actually commented that bruneian are having more artist, singers etc. And he/she asked that would they be entertainer even when they reached age 40 ? but it's cool and great to see people actually living by their dreams. Why can't we do Big in Brunei ? LOLs. knock knock * anyone want to do something about it ? :D 

hey,i'm bored so imma crap more two days later cause i'm not going to be here tomorrow. It's sunday give me a break. HAHA` just joking. Anyways, yeaaaa.  byebyes.

takecare and do stay alive till i return. (;

have a blessed day ofcourse,

And God does Blesses Us all. 

More articles coming, old band i miss

Hello random-ers,

i woke up early in the morning just to find out that there's a Vid from someone's facebook profile and i listen to the song he sang. he's really talented, i miss that old band. I seriously do, if there's another chance i would really love to invite them to perform again.

But they are some story between line, haha` not that i really cared. Just i really do.

Anyway, would love to say my prayers. I really really do hope, everything will be great and then i would love to send great opportunities to them. (;

Working out on few more new articles.

Notice that i got something coming up next two week.

So, and this article i promised to give on Sunday.

Need to chaos for the mean time, takecare everyone. (;

Have a Blessed Day.

A great mother, teenage issue

Last night, i met this mother whom cared for her son so much that she asked every little detail about the travel because his son is going to London soon for some study course. And she's quite old and his son is around 20+. I'm surprise by how much a mother would care for their children, i guess i forgot what parents are suppose to do and the responsibilities.


I'm just really surprise again, she saved up sums of college money for her children. I didn't see that coming from my parents. Well, She just gave me another perspective view about certain things.


Seems like i was actually wrong about what i always had in mind. About teenage shouldn't be a robot of the book but instead do what they like as in enjoy the so called Life. Now that i see, it's actually my own problem since i wasn't well guide by my parents. My nature would be a little wild unlike others who are so cautious about everything and even assume themselves would be useless without a certified qualification. One of my friend actually said " no result no future " am like whaaat?


I think it would be a long long way to go if i were to talk about the important of education and life. But yeaa. i would still love to talk about it but not argue with it. Because i could not able to talk things through Hard headed people who only think from one point of view. Like my *** for instant. HAHA` so bad of me. ( check the page for this article )


I actually copied and paste my last post about thought for teenage to Copycat.
I thought it would be cool that i would be able to reach more teenagers regarding this issue so people can actually think about it and think about the life they wanted to have.
But he/she just said that they would post up on fb for everyone to read.
Thanks a lot.
Again, i sense that this issue is very sensitive. Not much people would agree with the things i've said. ESP Parents` eyes on you. 


Got more paper to do. :D until next time.
(: all the blessings.

Thought Teenage

I'm totally random today, but not over random like bumping into someone and claims that i heart them.

Do you agree that teenagers should express more of themselves? My answer is totally, Dream & enjoy every moment.

Think about Rain Form Droughts? What's that? It's actually - Random Thoughts.

Which Rat hole did i even found such random idea. And also MazingMiles. Another random blog of mine.

Okay stop with the random talk.

I got to say, it's like so much happenings going around, And when i say this i pretty sure i'm dreaming at the moment. Cause nothing actually even happen in my Life. Stop* the craziness :D

Let's pick a topic and crap shall we?

Let's "THOUGHT" about Teenagers.

I think Life is a waste if you Don't enjoy every awesome moment there is for us. OK, just sit down and think about it. When you finish college or university, your age is coming 30. Incoming 40 ! and here comes 50. 

I don't know about other people. Some okay, not very open minded or those who are very sure that they are very open-minded person still object the things i said. Then, i'll just wave the white flag no worries you win.

Maybe because i'm not like other kids at school. ( not saying i'm special ) Just that if what you don't understand what i said then probably the way i think is different from what most of you have in mind. 

I wouldn't appreciate the thought of someone whose not sure about what kind of life they wanted to have. And they just keep studying till a very high qualification. Graduation at age 25-30. Coming to age 40. I couldn't bare to be like that. If you say, " hey, everyone are like too " then i guess your right, cause you rather choose to be like them.

Indeed your so right, i'm talking like a childish spoiled kid because i sound like i don't know what's reality and as if i'm living in a dream. and because i do not choose to be like what you will be in the future.

Education is indeed important, and i did not ever said it's not important but the way individual are striving for it. sometimes, i just want to ask What's the point. totally been understood about the whole good pay method. Alright but i would totally say, if that's what you want in your life. Then you don't have to even bother what kind of life you wanted to have. Striving till the very end for the very satisfying figure in your bank account but look in the mirror and you'll realize so many things you did was just a waste. You never really Live Life. :)

My point is - Life is short, don't waste it, enjoy it. 

( I love talks about Life )

talk about D5000,bands,facebook

Even i want to ask myself, what got into me. All of a sudden i am so random-ish.

I created few blogs for myself. I don't know can you find it or not. But yeaa, it's somewhere out there.

it feels like my mind is racing, and i could even hold it back and see what's inside.

There's just so much in my life now. :D I think God might be planning to show my life down a little bit. But i do like all these excitement.

I'm planning to get D5000. And seriously i wanted that, i am very new the DSLR world. So, i still need advice from those who are very experience into it. Someone actually selling 500D second hand, but i'm still in dilemma. If that person was able to convince me, i think i would surrender and leave D5000 in my dreams.

Karacoma ? Do you know about Karacoma? Well, that band is the artist of the month ! ( June )

but awww` tomorrow's July. well, not the point.

I heard their song broadcast at Pelangi Fm 91.4 dozen of time. And i really liked the vocal, they're pretty much i can say " talented " but i wouldn't had known them if it wasn't for the radio. Seriously, seldom see them bashing/jamming around. But i do heard a lot about Balloon Strips - Adib's band.

oh, actually i do miss " The Broken String " band. Syai's band. The band Fify(old classmate) got for our Prom Night. The vocal's are awesome. 

But ermm. Let's just say Brunei People are talented but as if Brunei Government would approve these young blood to shine, i believe Brunei will be better too. And these lead me to some entertainment business idea. HAHA.

Times we spend at Facebook. Thank that person who actually founded Facebook who gaves us more entertainment and something to do while bored. Said, facebook is actually wasting our time and etc. But we would die in boredom if it wasn't for Facebook. ( i guess )

I think i did crap too much. Well, not really a Bad thing cause someday when i gets old. I can still go Online with white hair and fake teeth. Reading all the amazing funny rainfrom droughts i had when i was this young. After reading, then imma go to heaven. :D 

That's it for now. 

xoxo-R